there is a fire in me now, one that cannot be ignored.
for too long, i gave myself away. when i moved here, i softened in ways that were not true to me. i started pleasing, bending, giving until i was leaking. i told myself it was fine because the universe is abundant — it will refill me. but i was wrong. abundance is not about pouring yourself empty for others to drink. abundance is knowing when to say: enough.
i leaked energy to people who never deserved it. i let others take from me — with my permission and without. i stayed quiet when i should have said no. and all the while, i kept telling myself to ignore the shadows, to only see the good. i even denied the weight of the evil eye. but now, i see clearly. not everyone holds good intentions. not everyone who smiles is a friend.
and so, i have chosen to return to myself.
i have been hermiting, pulling back every thread of energy i gave away for free. calling my spirit home. reclaiming every spark, every flame that was once scattered. i have withdrawn my energy from everyone — except my family. i am gathering my power like a woman drawing water from a deep well.
know this: i see everything. i feel everything. i observe in silence, and i adjust with precision. i am no longer blind to people’s motives. i am awake, alert, and aligned — and i move with intention.
this is what it feels like to take my power back:
- to no longer apologize for my presence
- to no longer let others drain what is sacred.
- to stand in my strength without needing anyone’s permission.
i am no longer the woman who shrinks. i am no longer the woman who bends to be liked. i am no longer the woman who ignores her own knowing.
i am power. i am fire. i am whole.
and let me be clear: this is not arrogance, this is remembrance. my energy is medicine, and it is mine first before it can be given to anyone else. my presence is potent, my boundaries are holy, and my spirit is not for the taking.
to those who peek into my world — understand this: i do not move as i once did. i am not here to entertain, i am not here to be consumed. i am here to live in my power, to walk with my fire, to hold my energy like the sacred flame it is.
i have taken myself back.
this is my force, and it is mine to keep.
